Take time for the little things...

So I asked my husband if he wanted to go have lunch today since we were home and the kids were at daycare, but he chose to have a lunch meat sandwich and chips so that he could do yard work this afternoon right away.  He's says it's just my imagination when I say are you avoiding me?

Decisions

Oh the opportunities, which I am thankful to have.  If only choosing were the easy part.  I have a M-F 8-5 opportunity, and two education related possibilities (which won't be available until August of course) which are only a hard choice because I need to get to work now!  I really don't want to give up my time with my girls this summer, nor any summer, but can not afford to go without work for much longer.  If I elected to become a substitute teacher I could still chip away at my small business idea.  The office job is a great job really!  What if I pass it up and then regret not taking it.  I have wanted this job off and on the last year.  AHHH!

I can't think straight anymore!  Maybe I should say I can't hear myself think with very loud childrens' toys only 15 inches from my ears.   Calgon????

Other than that...

Besides the fact that I am now broke and looking for a fulfilling way to make a living, things are crazy!  We are still trying for our third child.  It's been a year now and now luck.  It is so odd since we barely decided to with the first two.  I blame my two years of teaching high school and the stress that I put my body through, not to mention the 4 years older that I now am.

I still want to move closer to my family, I feel so alone with no unconditional love near me-ha ha!  I briefly thought about purchasing a rental property but came to my senses.  They probably want me to have some income before I apply for a loan.  hmmmm

As for my hobbies...I ended up trading my new Pentax Kx in for a new camera same model because it was draining batteries like you wouldn't believe.  The last 3 sets of batteries had less than 200 photos each.  NOW I have probably gotten over 1000 photos on the first set of batteries.  Whew!  I will post my first attempts at portrait and wedding photography-how fun!!

Handywoman...

I decided to go forward with my most recent brainstorm for running my own business.  I am starting a handywoman/concierge business catering to women and elderly, or perhaps owners of properties that need preparing to rent or sell.  Any ideas on this?  I have created a flyer to take to some contractors and realtors and and just trying to spread the word without the cost of advertising just yet.

I have had my first job which I feel was completed below my standards and now realize that I will probably always feel self conscious about my work no matter how well I did.  Is this true for anyone else?

Now what!

Okay, since I want to change my dream career every week I think I'll decide to blog about that!  Maybe someone somewhere will find some benefit in that!  This week, I've decided I want to start my own business; actually I've pondered this for sometime.  I'm just formulating the big picture.  It is a concierge and handywoman service.  I figure this is the only way that I can make a career out of doing a little bit of everything and whatever I want!  Do you suppose I could get a grant if I make it a non-profit organization?  Okay, maybe not.  But I'm still working out the details.  Stay tuned..  Next post will be all the jobs I've had to date and what I thought about them.

Seriously....

I frequently ponder....what have I done wrong and why couldn't I have made better choices while younger.  There are so many who are able to stay home with their young children and live comfortably.  I am so grateful for the wonderful family and health and many luxuries that we do have, but I can't help but think...What if my van breaks down tomorrow (140K miles)?  How can I continue on this way when I am approaching the "red" more and more every month.  I need to make a choice but I struggle at even narrowing down my options.  My husband's advice, "Find something, and stick with it!"  but that's just not my personality.  I want adventure, to learn new and exciting things all the time!  To work at a sufficient job that is moderately satisfying and barely sustaining is death to my soul!!  Oh, awakening, come to light soon!!

Step 1

So...I got a camera. Went with the Pentax K-x and have a lot to learn but am loving it! I'll be taking a class and then some so watch for more!